Poem # 8

Before, after

The unknown unraveled too much of me
I didn't for one moment wish to share
witness the one above
as he readily makes believe of fate
crushing every dream we've ever had
injustice was created
You weren't an exception
it didn't matter what I did
In sorrow I envy your infinite solitude ahead of you
Will I be left with nothing once you leave this earth
Please leave with my broken soul
apathy will be all that I'm worth
My belief for once let me down
There's no one to confide in when you are gone
I can't blame you for taking part of me away
but your tears make me refuse to be saved
Please don't stand in my way when the end comes
all my crimes will be paid
the punishments will gratify
Tired of asking my reasons to be justified
Nothing changes the fact I lived and let die
body crumbling no love to set me free
Whisper to me don't be afraid
while I wait for the end I will be protected
from everything that reminds me of you
Will I see your face
Before I squander what's left away?

Ella Evans© 2008

"I know the moment's near,and there's nothing we can do.
Look through a faithless eye,are you afraid to die?
It scares the hell out of me, and the end is all I can see.
And it scares the hell out of me ,and the end is all I can see."

----Matt Bellamy(Muse)
"Thoughts Of A Dying Atheist"