Poem # 9

Megalomania

If you were to jump from where you stood
because they asked you to
on top of the tallest skyscraper in downtown
where your good restless heart lay overdue
Closest to the gods where we belonged
or so were you convinced
Don't make the leap
Have you lost your mind
You feel like I don't know you anymore
Screaming loud reaching out
to be heard by the impassive crowd
Every crisis was an opportunity
a contagious signal
urged us to prove ourselves
to everyone victimized by fictions, statistics,
and the supposed new world?
Assume you couldn't see the lines drawn
Pretend you did not need to fight a war alone
Suppose you haven't noticed the distance grown
You dream of an escape from reality
drifting away from history, once learned lessons
Your greatness shown in your vanity
through the rise and fall of humanity
glorified leaders you admired not long ago
Have you forgotten they no longer held control?
Why did you let them come back to haunt you?
Don't make the leap
Have you lost your mind
Ignore their cheers
They only want to see you bleed
...
...
Love,
go on and fight their battle,
One day we might finally agree on where to go...

Ella Evans© 2008

Jungvolk Oath (taken by ten-year-old boys on first entering the Hitler Youth)

"In the presence of this blood banner which represents our Führer, I swear to devote all my energies and my strength to the saviour of our country, Adolf Hitler. I am willing and ready to give up my life for him, so help me God."

Poem # 8

Before, after

The unknown unraveled too much of me
I didn't for one moment wish to share
witness the one above
as he readily makes believe of fate
crushing every dream we've ever had
injustice was created
You weren't an exception
it didn't matter what I did
In sorrow I envy your infinite solitude ahead of you
Will I be left with nothing once you leave this earth
Please leave with my broken soul
apathy will be all that I'm worth
My belief for once let me down
There's no one to confide in when you are gone
I can't blame you for taking part of me away
but your tears make me refuse to be saved
Please don't stand in my way when the end comes
all my crimes will be paid
the punishments will gratify
Tired of asking my reasons to be justified
Nothing changes the fact I lived and let die
body crumbling no love to set me free
Whisper to me don't be afraid
while I wait for the end I will be protected
from everything that reminds me of you
Will I see your face
Before I squander what's left away?

Ella Evans© 2008

"I know the moment's near,and there's nothing we can do.
Look through a faithless eye,are you afraid to die?
It scares the hell out of me, and the end is all I can see.
And it scares the hell out of me ,and the end is all I can see."

----Matt Bellamy(Muse)
"Thoughts Of A Dying Atheist"